Layer Log XXV - The will to continue?
December 28st, 2024
I wanna be all these things.
These interest me.
A programmer, game developer, musician, and all that stuff.
But when I try to do it. It’s hard. I wanna do all this these things yet I seem to be shit at it.
Sometimes I tell myself “So I wanna do these things?” and I answer yes. Is it just laziness or do I actually wanna do these things.
I wanna change something this world doesn’t seem to care. Art.
I know I’m talking fucking crazy but people don’t appreciate the art of anything. Many just care for their own gain. I do too but I wanna spread the word of change yet I sometimes lack it too.
I wanna change something yet I’m just too small.
Maybe too abstract. Maybe too crazy. I’m just a little ant in this world. Too small to commit change nor even do something good.
This creative liberty I wanna go with. But I feel like I’m too young to be dreaming big. I’m not even out of high school. I’m giving up too late. I wanna try and do something.
