I wonder why I’m like this. The need for love in important to me even though I don’t care for myself.
I long for connection and love. But I feel too obssessed. I feel too distressed.
I want to wait but I don’t know how long I can wait. I’m too impatient.
I feel so deprived of love. I want to feel something. Not sex. Just to feel loved.
I want to change and love myself but I’m too impatient. I can’t talk to her.
She makes me nervous. I don’t wanna say the wrong thing and my stutter will probably mess things up.
I know she’s the one. But I feel like I overshared to her and was too attached to her.
She probably doesn’t want to associate with me.
I can’t keep thinking like this. I want to live with her. But I want kids and she doesn’t.
I’m thinking too far. I need to calm down. I need to find something to distract myself.
I need to accept its probably not gonna be real even though we tried it out and want to see if it goes long.
I need to accept or wait it out.
I’m pathetic.